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January 28

With or Without U

あなたは、あなたがあなたの生命を、今後もよりよい生きているだけに私が欠かせないn'tに参加することを選ぶin my life
I DONT NEEED U
U ARE NOTHING
 
 
November 18

zt心理測驗

心理測驗題目:什麼原因會讓你想哭?
排一下自己最易哭的原因
! (1是最容易 , 5是最不容易)
五個選項分別是:

a.
感動

b.
傷心

c.
( 是肉體, 不是心靈)
d.
生氣

e.
擔心/緊張

排好了嗎?準備看答案囉!

請看自己把該選項排在第幾個順位來找解答喔~

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   感動:不是跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......
排在第
1 - 一個常常把自己藏起來的人。很有神秘感。不容易接近。
排在第
2 - 一個很會關心別人的人。很容易發現身邊有人不開心。不會很容易講錯東西或話題。
排在第
3 - 一個傻傻的人。怪怪的。想做什麼就做什麼。不過很可愛。
排在第
4 - 一個不會想老是要人擔心的人。(特別是長輩)
排在第
5 - 一個很聰明很負責任的領導人。對你很尊敬。


]
   傷心:跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......
排在第
1 - 對很多事都要求很高的人。不過有很多時候都太固執。
排在第
2 - 可以跟你講道理。黑白之間分辨得很清楚。
排在第
3 - 心思很細膩的人。很多時候傷心不會表現出來,不過其實大家都看得出來。
排在第
4 - 會先想很多才會做選擇。不想自己給人看扁,自尊可以算是很強的人。
排在第
5 - 外剛柔的人。但其實知道你的心不是那麼堅強。


]
   痛:你想要別人覺得你是 ......
排在第
1 - 很需要別人保護的人。
排在第
2 - 不是那麼容易接近的人。
排在第
3 - 好人一個。很關心身邊的人。不怕做犧牲的人。
排在第
4 - 很聰明 , 不過又不會驕傲的人。
排在第
5 - 很清楚自己想什麼要什麼的人。


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   生氣:你最希望你的情人是......
排在第
1 - 跟你很合拍。你跟他想的東西是一樣 ,不用問便知道對方要什麼。
排在第
2 -不會很客易發脾氣。要懂得容忍你。外剛柔。有自己的性格。
排在第
3 - 心是很可愛的一個人。你猜不到下一他會做什麼。
排在第
4 -很細心。你需要什麼他都有準備。不會因為很少的東西便找你。
排在第
5 - 智慧很重要。可以管得到你的人。而且要講道理。


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   擔心 /緊張:其實真實的你是 ......
排在第
1 - 一個很怕給別人看到自己是什麼樣的人。不喜歡自己性格的人。
排在第
2 -孤獨的人。很希望可以跟一大堆人在一起。不過很多時候都不知道怎樣跟別人溝通。
排在第
3 -覺得朋友比天還重要的人。很珍惜身邊很多朋友。敢愛敢恨。不過不喜歡的人你就不會去管..
排在第
4 -直接的人。很多時候因為這樣的性格跟別人不合。希望有多一點人可以了解你, 特別是你喜歡的人。
排在第
5 -不是很清楚自己將來要什麼。不過就很幸運的走過半生。不會對很多東西有要求。最重要是可以開心過一天!
October 14

Justice my ass

Justice My Ass' Raja Petra says

If you love this country you should help circulate this mail to all your friends who are MIC and MCA members, if they are not too busy enriching their own pockets and make future generation of their children, their grand children and their great grand children suffer.  For 50 years the Chinese have given their vote to MCA and for 50 years MCA have pass their vote to the Malay, yes Malay in UMNO for a little self benefits.  MCA members have no balls to speak for the Chinese and yes MCA in Johor who have NO Balls to speak against the UMNO. Where do you think the Malays come from Indonesia lah and what ever happened to the great Chinese Warriors from Yunan that saved these Malays from Siamese attack called Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat and princess Hang Li Po??, disappears from our children history books that we used to read in our school days (ungrateful UMNO).

Only Raja Petra will speak for the Chinese and the Indian.


PLEASE PASS THIS INFORMATION TO ALL YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.
KEEP PASSING IT UNTIL A NEW GOVERNMENT TAKES OVER THE COUNTRY.


Subject: Raja Petra says, ' Justice My Ass !! '

Here's ANOTHER Reason NON-Malays Should NOT Vote UMNO in Any Future General Elections and Bye-Elections
Thursday, June 05, 2008
16:39

Read here from M'sians Unplugged ...
Average Non-Malay Malaysians and NON-Malay Bumiputras have LITTLE future for their children and their grandchildren IF they still vote Barisan Nasional which allows UMNO to remain in Government - it was before, it is today, and it will be tomorrow.

Excerpts from article by Raja Petra Kamarudin
by

Raja Petra Kamarudin
'Last month, Umno Johor said that the greatest mistake they made was in giving the non-Malay immigrants citizenship in August 1957. Now that they have been given citizenship they show their ingratitude by voting for the opposition.

Yes, non-Malays, even those born in Malaysia , are immigrants. And, being immigrants, they must vote Barisan Nasional. And if they do not vote for Barisan Nasional then they are ungrateful.

Yes, voting is your right. This is your right according to the Federal Constitution of Malaysia. Malays can vote for whomsoever they would like to vote for because the Constitution allows them to do so. Malays, therefore, can vote for the opposition.

But, if you are non-Malay, then you must vote for Barisan Nasional because you are an immigrant. If you vote for the opposition then you are a traitor, you are ungrateful, and it was a great mistake giving you citizenship in 1957.

Tun Dr Mahathir's father was born in INDIA. But Tun Dr Mahathir can vote opposition. He can even oppose Umno like he is doing so now. In fact, he can even become the Prime Minister. He is not an ungrateful immigrant who should be sent back to India .

Tian Chua, however, can't oppose Umno. Tian Chua, whose family settled in Malaya long before the Portuguese came in 1511, is an immigrant. And if he is not happy and if he opposes Umno then he should go back to Chin a .

And Umno Johor regrets giving Tian Chua citizenship in 1957 but does not regret giving Tun Dr Mahathir citizenship.

Why? Because Tun Dr Mahathir is Muslim while Tian Chua is not.
But if Tian Chua circumcises and takes on the Muslim name of Musa Bin Susah and marries a Malay woman, then he need not go back to Chin a and Umno does not regret giving him citizenship in 1957.

The Malays have a very warped view of justice. Malays practice two standards of justice. 
  There is one standard for the Malays and another for the non-Malays.

And
90% of the tax is paid by the NON-Malays and 10% by the Malays, says Tun Dr Mahathir.

But
10% of the scholarships must go to the NON-Malays and 90% to the Malays.

And when they propose to change this to 40% for the non-Malays and 60% for the Malays, the Malays raise a hue and cry. 
  And they call this justice. And they say Islam is about justice.'

JUSTICE MY ASS, MAN !!!!

September 01

。。。

1。你要经常去她的个人主页,即使什么也不留下,但是她看到你来过的记录也会很开心。


2。当你和她打电话时,你一定要她先挂你的电话,即使她说了一百遍要你先挂。



3。和她发短信时,字数一定要比她的多,这样她会觉得你是在乎她的。


4。和她在一起时,不要什么都顾着自己的喜好,即使她说了一万遍要你不要管她。


5。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道晚安的短信,不管你有多晚,因为她可能一直在等你,只是她嘴上说不管。


6。你问她想不想你时,如果她说不想,你一定要很开心,因为她的不想就是想。


7。任何时候不要让她找不到你,因为这样她会一直很不安心。


8。你们发生矛盾时,不要动不动拿以后来威胁她。or 公民 or 包包 or 食物 or 保样品


9。就算她跟你无理取闹你也要原谅她,因为她那是在测试你在乎她的程度。因为她那是缺乏安全感。


10。对她对你已经说过一万遍的关心,不要不耐烦的说知道了知道了,要很感动的说谢谢,因为那真的都是她出自内心的关心。


11。当她关心你时,不要说出:原来你也会关心我这样的话。这样会很伤她心,因为这对于她来说是一种很大的否定。


12。就算你再忙,你也不能一连好几天不给她短信,或者对她忽冷忽热,因为这样会让她很恐慌,是不是自己又做错了什么。


13。千万要记得她都是害羞的,不要什么都让她主动。


14。即使最后你们还是不能走到一起,记得,一定要跟她说清楚,因为她都是专情的,不要让她再等你。


15。分手后,千万不要再对她说出以后还是朋友这样的话,因为这样她会觉得自己很悲哀。
August 29

珍惜发脾气的女友

 

永远不会发脾气的女人就如同一杯白开水-解渴,却无味。

你迟到,她向你发脾气,是因为她紧张你,她怕你出了什么意外。

你抽烟,她向你发脾气,是因为她担心你的身体健康。

你喝酒,她向你发脾气,是因为她担心你酒醉后没有人照顾,感觉到孤单,更怕你在酒吧会出什么事,留下她一个人,她希望跟你长长久久,白头到老。

你身上被发现有别的女人香,她向你发脾气,是因为她在乎你,你是她的所有,她不想跟别人分亨你。

你臭袜子乱扔,她向你发脾气,是因为她关心你,她怕有一天你会被自己的臭袜子淹没,所以她要先把你训练好。

你忘记她的生日,她向你发脾气,是因为她对你有所期待,她并不会要求一个陌生人记住她的生日。

女人是最讲理的动物,她的脾气往往导因于各式各样的理由。

女人也是最不讲理的动物,她的理由经常令人无法理解。

女人可以为了一件小得不能再小的事,发一场大得不能再大的脾气。

因为女人对身边的男人有所要求,有所期望,所以常常会失望;失落。

因此,女人容易对男人发脾气。

身边有个会向你发脾气的女人,其实是一件多么幸福的事!

而身边有一个会让自己发脾气的男人,是对女人最大的折磨,也是莫大的幸福。

珍惜你身边那个爱生气的女人,因为会发脾气的女人最可爱了~

假如有一天,她不在为你生气……

留下的只有漆黑的房间,慌乱的心跳,述说着心灵深处的痛楚。那寂寞的思念,那暗淡的惆怅,还有那幸

福的幻觉,独自呓语!!!
March 13

cancer

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY(TRY THE KEY WORD) AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHN HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY.



1. Every person has cancer cells in the body.These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.  



2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.  





3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.  



4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to



genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.  





5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the  


immune system.  





6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.  





7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.  



8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.  





9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.  



10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy.
Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.  





11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.  



CANCER CELLS FEED ON:  


a. Sugar, is a cancer-feeder.



By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like Nutrasweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt. ( THE WEST MADE US 2 CHANGE FROM SEA 2 WHITE IODISED SALT )





b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus .



By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soya milk cancer cells are being starved.  





c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment.



A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains
livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful,especially to people with cancer.  





d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment.
About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed
and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for
building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).  



e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine.



Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water- best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.  





12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup.  



13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.  





14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor ssence,Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins,minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells.
Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.  



15. Cancer is a disease of the mind,body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor.



Anger, un forgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.  





16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.  



PLEASE READ ON  


1. No plastic containers in micro.



2. No water bottles in freezer.  


3. No plastic wrap in microwave.  


Johns Hopkinshas recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at WalterReedArmyMedicalCenteras well. Dioxin chemicals causes cancer, especially breast cancer.





Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don't freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic. Recently, Dr. Edward Fujimoto,
Wellness Program Manager at CastleHospitalwas on a TV program to explain this health hazard.



He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us. He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers. This especially applies to foods that contain fat.




He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastics releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body.



Instead, he recommends using glass, such as CorningWare, Pyrex or ceramic containers for heating food.





You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc., should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn't bad but you don't know what is
in the paper. It's just safer to use tempered glass, CorningWare, etc. He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper. The dioxin problem is one of the reasons.



Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooked in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food. Cover food with a paper towel instead.

March 07

SN CC

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
February 24

h

Question: What is the difference between men and puppies?
Answer: Puppies grow up.


Question: Why do men always have a stupid look on their faces?
Answer: Because they are...


Question: What do men have in common with ceramic tiles?
Answer: Fix them properly once and you can walk all over them
Forever.


Question: If you drop a man and a brick out of a plane, which one
Would hit the ground first?
Answer: Who cares?????


Question: What did God say after he created man?
Answer: I can do better than this! And then he created woman!!!.


Question: What's the difference between an intelligent man & a UFO?
Answer: I don't know, I've never seen either.


Question: What are two reasons why men don't mind their own business?
Answer: I) no mind ii) no business


Question: Why did Moses wander in the desert for 40 years?
Answer:! Because even back then men wouldn't ask for directions.

Question: What is the difference between men and pigs?
Answer: Pigs don't turn into men when they drink...


Question: What makes men chase women they have no intention of
Marrying?
Answer: The same urge that makes dogs chase vehicles they have no
Intention of driving.

Question: What do you do with a man who thinks he's God's gift?
Answer: Exchange him!!


Question: Why do men like smart women?
Answer: Opposites attract.
January 21

新不了情

心若倦了
泪也干了
这份深情
难舍难了
曾经拥有
天荒地老
已不见你
幕幕与朝朝
这一份情
永远难了
原来生还能
再度拥抱
爱一个人
如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切
我不知道
回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来
拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜你应该明了
缘难了
情难了
 
June 21

1980s memory lane

If you are Msia's 80s baby,read through this, we grew up watching Transformers, Thundercats, Woody Woodpecker, Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask, StarCom, Ninja Turtles, Voltron, Ultraman n not forgettin, Knight Rider n BUGS BUNNY!!! :), McGyver ? A-Team? Airwolf?

do you still remember that we had 'dentist' rooms where we had to have our teeth check?

not to forget our 'program minum susu' in primary school.. everybody is suppose to buy like cartons of milk that costed 30 cents.. and you would see everyone drinking it everyday...its d UHT milk...

the teachers who would want to punish us must use yellow rulers to hit us on our palms?? 1 metre length..

that a bowl of mihun soup or Laksa only costed 50 cents at the school canteen...

went to some sundry shop near the school or to the 'roti' man waiting outside our schools so that we can buy junk food like chickedees, mamee, ding dang with some toys in it, 'Ti Kam', ice-cream and we would play games like monopoly, uno,old maid, TOP TRUMPS (Car card games), and all other similar card
games..

but of course. the best would be bottlecaps, ice-cream sticks, 'Pepsi Cola, one-two-three', Cops and Robbers, chasing,getah... and for the not so active, those kind of 'book games' where we would use buku latihan to draw and ask our friends to play...

do you remember the ice-cream tubes which are actually ice and colouring that are sold for 10 to 20 cents.. where you usually bite off the top to glup it down. orange tastes b best..(pop-ice)

what about days when we felt like doing naughty things such as folding papers so small to make 'lastik' amd shoot each other... how about throwing chalks??

back then, micheal jackson was just turning white.. His albums were TOP SELLING , Known as "KING OF POP";
Back then, we were listening to tapes that sold for RM9.90 instead of CDs. VHS Tape was in a rage. Pirated
Movies/Shows came in VHS Tape format instead of VCD.

Also, Kylie Minogue was just 19 then (1989), Bon Jovi (and their band members) just in their mid-20s. Leslie Cheung and Alan Tam battle it out for "Heavenly King"; title. No. 1 hit Album in 1991 is "Vanilla Ice" (Ice Ice Baby).

In Sports, Liverpool conquered the 80s until early 90s. Top badminton players were Yang Yang, Morten Frost, Foo Kok Keong, Liem Swie King, Tian Bing Yi/Li Yong Bo, Razif & Jalani Sidek. SELANGOR
FC and Singapore FC battled it out in the TOP Division.

Remember, in computer class, we were still using black and white monitors, PC OS either
Atari, MAC, or Commodore. played games... like Digger, Super Mario; Also, remember the ;Nitendo Game And Watch.

Oh! How about cars? Back in Early 90s, One of the MUST HAVE car was FORD TX3 1.8 16v DOHC EFI RM56,000 only. 0-100km/h in 8.9 secs ; VERY QUICK back in early 90s). Other MUST HAVE cars were
Honda Civic Bullet, Mazda Astina, BMW 3 series, Ferrari 348GTB and Nissan Skyline GTR R32.

Oh! What about Handphones? Back then it's called <TAI KO TAI>; and it resembles a brick, can be used to hit people. Oh! It costs a whooping RM6,000 to own one (as at 1991). Therefore only the RICH can really afford one.

Well, are we all getting older or what?

We are if:

1) if you understand what you have read and you are smiling...
2) we have friends from school that are already married and have kids...
3) we shake our heads everytime we see high school students fussing about their handphones in school.

last but not least, that when you read this, you would think of all the happy & sad memories that you have
experienced when you were still a kid and would think of forwarding this to your old friends that you have known since forever... i'm sure they would have a huge smile on their face after reading this!
 
god... i'm old
January 18

"

never been to hellll.....................
 
 
so donno how to appreciate heaven......................
 
December 28

streamline

December 05

.,.

Forcing women to bear the burden of morality is discriminatory and a violation of their rights
November 04

you're beautiful

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was, 
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

November 03

hate me today - blue october

 have to block out thoughts of you, so i don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home

There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I’ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand

And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away, just make it stop!”
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How could you did this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

October 13

28 reasons to know that you are a typical malaysian chinese

1. You unwrap gifts very carefully,so you can save and reuse the wrapping. (and especially those bows).

2. When there is a sale on toilet paper,you buy 100 rolls and store them?in your closet or in the bedroom of an adult child who has moved out.

3. You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times.

4. You save grocery bags,tin foil and tin containers.You use the grocery bags to hold garbage.

5. You hate to waste food: a. Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them.(your mom will give a lecture about starving kids in Africa).

b. You have Tupperwares in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.

6. you don't own any real Tupperware - only a cupboard full of used but carefully rinsed margarine tubs, take out containers and jam jars.

7. You have a collection of miniature shampoo bottles that you take every time you stay in a hotel.

8. You wipe your plate and utensils or wash them in a small basin of hot water before you eat every time you go to a restaurant.

9. You own a rice cooker and slow cooker.

10. You wash your rice at least 2-3 times before cooking it.

11. You fight(literally) over who pays the dinner bill.

12. You have a teacup with a cover on it.

13. If you're under age 20, you own a really expensive Walkman, if you're over 20,you own a really expensive camera.

14. You're a wok user.

15. You only make long distance call after 7pm.

16. You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attached - it means they're fresh.

17. You never call your parents just to say hi.

18. If you don't live at home and?when your parents call, they'll ask if you've eaten, even if it's midnight.
19. Your parents tell you to boil herbs and stay indoor when you get sick. They also tell you not to eat fried foods or baked goods because they're heaty (yeet hay in Cantonese)

20. You email your Chinese friends at work, even though you only sit less than 10 feet apart.

21. You always cook too much.

22. You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table.

23. You starved yourself before going to all you can eat buffet.

24. You know someone who can get you a good deal on jewelery or electronics or computers.

25. You own your own meat cleaver and sharpen it.
26. Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin.

27. You know why this list consists of only "28" reasons.

28. You can take this message and forward it to all your Chinese friends.


So, if you are a Chinese, keep it up guys, coz not everybody can be a Chinese!!
October 08

letter from lee kuan yew to pm

        Full text of Lee Kuan Yew's letter dated Sept 29 to PM (including the annex to his letter)               Tuesday, 03 October 2006, 07:12               FREE-FLOWING DIALOGUE: Mr Lee and former US treasury secretary Lawrence Summers at the one-hour head-to-head dialogue at which Mr Lee said Chinese Malaysians were being 'systematically marginalised'. -- THE NEW PAPER
      "On numerous occasions UMNO leaders, including Dr Mahathir and many others, have publicly warned Malaysian Malays that if they ever lose power, they risk the same fate as Malays in Singapore, whom they allege are marginalised and discriminated against (see Annex*)... Singapore understands the reality of Malaysian politics. We have never protested at these attacks on our multiracial system or our policies, except to clarify our own position when necessary." - Lee Kuan Yew
  ?The Straits Times, Singapore (Used by permission)
  THANK you for your letter of Sept 25, 2006.

I made the remarks in a free-flowing dialogue session with former US secretary of treasury Larry Summers before many foreign delegates attending the IMF/WB meeting. To put what Reuters reported into context, I set out the transcript of the relevant passage:

'Let me sum it up nicely, why you must have a government in Singapore which is really firm, stout-hearted, subtle and resolute. My neighbours both have problems with their Chinese. They are successful, they are hardworking and, therefore, they are systematically marginalised, even in education. There are quotas to prevent you. So, you've got to make money to go abroad or go to one of the private universities which are being set up. And they want Singapore, to put it simply, to be like their Chinese, compliant. So, every time, we say 'No' to some scheme to knock down the Causeway and build a bridge, he says, 'Oh, you're not cooperative, you're only thinking of yourself.' For no rhyme or reason, we knock down a causeway, nearly 100 years old, which served us well. He wants to build a bridge because it looks pretty and he says ships will sail and his containers can move from the East Coast to the West Coast via this. But we saw no... So, we said, 'All right, if you give us
commensurate benefits, we'll agree'. But you need a government who'll be able to, not only have the gumption, but the skill to say 'No' in a very quiet, polite way that doesn't provoke them into doing something silly.'
  On the bridge and the half bridge to remove the Causeway, you made the position of your government clear; that Malaysia respects legally binding agreements and acts in accordance with international law. This made unnecessary a reference to ITLOS and the International Court of Justice that would otherwise have been unavoidable. This respect for the law is the basis for sound long-term relations between us.
  I was explaining to a liberal audience of Westerners who wanted to see a stronger opposition in Singapore, why Singapore needs a strong majority government, not a weak coalition that will hamper us in defending our national interests.

Singapore needs a strong government to maintain good relations with Indonesia and Malaysia, and to interact with Indonesian and Malaysian politicians who consider Singapore to be Chinese, and expect Singapore to be 'sensitive' and comply with their requests.

On numerous occasions UMNO leaders, including Dr Mahathir and many others, have publicly warned Malaysian Malays that if they ever lose power, they risk the same fate as Malays in Singapore, whom they allege are marginalised and discriminated against (see Annex*). And from time to time, when Malaysian politicians attack Singapore fiercely over some bilateral issue, some of them tell us privately that we should just accept this as part of Malaysian politics and not react to these attacks.

Singapore understands the reality of Malaysian politics. We have never protested at these attacks on our multiracial system or our policies, except to clarify our own position when necessary. But we have to explain to our people the root cause of these difficulties in our bilateral relations. Otherwise, Singaporeans will believe that their own government is doing wrong, either to our own people or to Malaysia.

As for the international audience, with so many foreign embassy staff and foreign correspondents reporting on Singapore and Malaysia, plus tens of thousands of expatriate businessmen working in our two countries, these people will come to their own judgment of the true position, regardless of what I say.

I have not said anything more than what I have said many times before. In fact, I have said less than what I had written in my memoirs published in 1998. I had no intention to meddle in your politics. Indeed I do not have the power to influence Malaysia's politics or to incite the feelings of the Chinese in Malaysia.

Since you took over as Prime Minister in November 2003, relations between our two countries have much improved. Singaporeans, and I believe, Malaysians too, appreciate this.

I am sorry that what I said has caused you a great deal of discomfort. After a decade of troubled relations with your predecessor, it is the last thing I wanted.

Yours sincerely,
Lee Kuan Yew

PS: The fact that you have written to me is now well publicised. As I have been asked about my reply, I will have to release my letter to the media after you have received it.

* The Annex lists numerous media reports on Malaysian leaders talking about the alleged marginalisation of Singapore Malays.

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  MINISTER Mentor Lee Kuan Yew has been strongly criticised in Malaysia for his recent comments on Chinese in the country.
  In a letter yesterday to Malaysian Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi, MM Lee explained the context of his remarks and said sorry for the discomfort he caused Datuk Seri Abdullah.
  The Minister Mentor also noted that on numerous occasions many Umno leaders, including former prime minister Mahathir Mohamad, had alleged that Malays in Singapore were marginalised and discriminated against.
  His letter contained an annex listing several occasions when such remarks were made:
  No: 1.
  Date: 3 Sep 06
  Who: Umno Youth Deputy Chief Khairy Jamaluddin
  Where: China Press
  What: Khairy was reported to have said that the Malays in Penang faced the same fate of being marginalised as those in Singapore and that many of them were forced to move elsewhere.

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  No: 2.
  Date: 28 Aug 06
  Who: Deputy Health Minister Abdul Latiff Ahmad
  Where: The Star
  What: This article reported that at the Bukit Mertajam Umno delegates' conference, the Bukit Mertajam Umno division called on Penang Chief Minister Koh Tsu Koon to give up the Penang Water Supply Corporation Sdn Bhd Chairman's post to Umno. The division chief alleged that Dr Koh had 'snatched' the chairman's post away from Umno.
  Deputy Health Minister Abdul Latiff, who opened the conference, said that he sympathised with Penang Malays because 'I understand they do not want to end up becoming like the Malays in Singapore'.

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  No: 3.
  Date: 29 May 05
  Who: Former PM Mahathir Mohd
  Where: Mingguan Malaysia
  What: After a visit to Palestine, Mahathir was asked what advice he had for the younger generation so that they would understand the Palestinian crisis.
  Mahathir replied that when he was Education Minister, a Palestinian professor had told him that Malaysians should be grateful for their good fortune. Mahathir added: 'Let us not go far. Look at Singapore. Do we want to be like Muslim Malays in Singapore? Yet we are not grateful and have not taken steps to ensure that our country will not suffer the same plight'.

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  No: 4.
  Date: 3 Oct 02
  Who: Then PM Mahathir Mohd
  Where: Bernama
  What: At a dialogue held in conjunction with the third 'Malay and Islamic World Convention' in Malacca, Mahathir said that Malaysia's Malays might become a minority group like the Malays in Singapore if they continue to quarrel among themselves and do not work hard.
  On 3 Oct 02 in Bernama, he was quoted as saying that there were groups that claimed that the Singapore Malays were better off than Malaysian Malays, 'but the fact as can be seen now is that Singapore Malays are not given the opportunity to hold high posts in various fields such as the military.'
  He said that Malays in Malaysia were at one time nearly reduced to the same fate as Singapore Malays, a minority race, but that they were saved by the economic depression in 1930, when many Chinese and Indians returned to their home countries.

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  No: 5.
  Date: 26 Aug 02
  Who: Then PM Mahathir Mohd
  Where: Bernama
  What: At a Puteri UMNO information session, Mahathir warned that if the Malays continued to be disunited and questioned every move the government made, they would be marginalised, not just in Penang but all over the country. He said a worse fate would befall them if they were also lazy to improve their standard of living.
  He said: 'This will lead to the degradation of their race, not just in Penang but all over the country.' He added that 'The Malays in this country must not forget. At one time we were almost like Singapore and we must remember that in the 30s the migrants formed the majority of the population.'
  However, Mahathir denied the claim that few economic opportunities had been given to Malays. He said that 'we have given them substantial economic opportunities...but sometimes what we gave them, they gave to other people instead.'

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  No: 6.
  Date: 11 Dec 00
  Who: Then PM Mahathir Mohd
  Where: Bernama
  What: In response to Suqiu (Malaysian Chinese Organisation's Election Appeals Committee) call for equal rights and meritocracy, Mahathir said that meritocracy was used as an excuse for blocking and oppressing native people of their rights by immigrant communities as seen in what he described as an 'immediate neighbouring country and other nations'. He added that '...we've seen how natives of the land become marginalised, impoverished and have no role in the government in the name of so-called equal rights ad meritocracy.'
  Following Mahathir's remarks, Utusan Malaysia (UM) carried a front-page article entitled 'Singapore Deliberately Weakens The Malays' based on Lily Zubaidah Rahim's 'The Singapore Dilemma: The Political Educational Marginality of the Malay Community', which claimed that the Singapore Government had over the years actively marginalised the Malays in Singapore. This was followed by a spate of comments by Malaysian politicians on the issue, for example:
  12 Dec 00: Mohd Ruzi Jamil (President of the Kedah Federation of Peninsular Malay Students) said that Singapore Malays' weakness in education and the economy was caused by political pressure imposed by the Republic's leaders. He stressed that many of the Malay rights have been withdrawn and they are not given equal opportunities to compete with other races in the country.
  14 Dec 00: BN Senator Abdul Aziz Abdul Rahman said in Parliament that 'by keeping quiet, PAS wants the Malay community in the country to face the same fate as the Malays in Singapore who have been neglected by the republic's government although the Singapore Constitution demands that the rights of the Malays in that country be protected'.
  21 Dec 00: Tan Sri Aziz Tapa (UMNO Veteran and former Malacca State Assembly Speaker) said that 'I think that there is no need for a dialogue because we know the motives of Suqiu are the same as DAP: to turn Malaysia into something like Singapore.'

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  No: 6a.
  Date: Dec 00 to Jan 01
  Who: Various
  Where: Various
  What: During the Suqiu controversy, following Mahathir's comments as listed immediately above, there was also a media campaign in the Malaysian papers attacking Singapore for marginalising the Malays. Reports that were published included those listed below:
  * 13 Dec 00 - UM - 'Singapore Marginalises the Malay Community'
  * 13 Dec 00 - UM - 'Singapore Malays' Weakness is due to Political Pressure'
  * 16 Dec 00 - UM - 'Suqiu making Malays Here Have the Same Plight as Malays in Singapore'
  * 19 Dec 00 - New Straits Times - 'Meritocracy comes under Attack'
  * 21 Dec 00 - UM - 'Living in Isolation in own Country'
  * 26 Dec 00 - UM - 'Penang Malays follow Singapore's footsteps'
  * 5 Jan 01 - UM - 'Suqiu: Learn form [sic] Singapore's Problem'

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  No: 7.
  Date: 23 Aug 98
  Who: Then Special Advisor to UMNO Jelebu Division
  (Note: He is now Minister of Culture, Arts and Heritage)
  Where: UM
  What: He accused Singapore of 'denying the right of Malays to hold senior positions in the SAF.'
  He also said that 'the issue of Malays being neglected in such a way actually is not a diplomatic issue but is an ethnic issue which insults everyone who calls themselves a Malay. Now we can ask, what has become of the meritocracy policy which is shouted by Singapore all this while?'
 
seriously, when is all this gonna end? or.. is there an end to all this? dont they have anything else better to do?
for once outside of my sejarah class... i think that man has a point ... not because i am a chinese or pro singapore or something.. just for once.. listen!!!
July 04

人生

这是一个关于生命的故事(笑话)
 
     头一天,神创造了一头牛,他对牛说:[你要整天在田里体农夫耕田,供应牛奶给人类喝。你要工作至日落,而你只能吃草。我给你40年的寿命。]
牛抗议:[这么辛苦,还只能吃草?我之遥0年的寿命,剩下的还给你。] 神答应了。
     第二天,神创造了狗。神对狗说:[你要站在门口叫,吃住人吃剩的东西。我给你20年的寿命。] 狗抗议:[整天坐在门口叫?我要10年好了,剩下的还给你。] 神答应了。
     第三天,神创造了猴子。他对猴子说:[你要娱乐人类,令他们欢笑。你要表演翻筋斗,而且只能吃香蕉。我给尼20年的寿命。] 猴子抗议:[要引人发笑,表演杂技,还要翻斤斗?这么辛苦,我要10年好了。] 神答应了。
     第四天,神创造了人。神对人说:[你只需要睡觉,吃东西和玩耍,不用作任何事,可以尽情享受生命。我给你20年寿命。] 人抗议:[这么好的生活只有20年?] 神没说话。人对神说:[这样吧,牛还了30年寿命给你,狗还了10年,猴子也还了10年,这些全部都给我好了。那我能活到70岁。]神答应了。
     这就是为什么头20年我们只需要吃饭,睡觉和玩乐,之后30年我们整天工作养家,无聊地守在家门前。最后的10年,我们要表演杂技耍赖娱乐自己的孙儿。
 
 
 
June 22

test your pressure level

These pictures are related to your pressure level.
 
If you see them moving means you are having pressure currently...
 
The speed of moving is your level of pressure.
 
The higher the speed, the higher pressure you have.
 
Most children and old people only see a still picture, not moving.
 
I saw them move in a slow motion, that's mean I have a bit pressure currently.
 
Test yourself regularly with these pictures to know yourself better.
Sometimes, it is good to have a appropriate pressure to push us to do better, but too much pressure can cause us to the end of the edge.
 
Be relax when you know you have too much pressure inside ! 
 
click on the pictures to make it bigger.. i dont think it works when it's small~
 
January 21

things i've done

Put an x in front of the ones that you have Ever done
and send to all your friends and the person that sent
it to you. it doesnt take more than 3 minutes!
(x) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
(x) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back

( ) gone on a blind date
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

(x) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at school
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(x)been misunderstood
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
( ) won a contest
( ) had a parent run a red light
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) hated yourself and the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently coloured with crayons/coloured
pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of
your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
( ) been a cheerleader
( ) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one handed cart-wheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believ in ghosts
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
( ) French braided someone's hair
(x) been to any other countries besides yours
( ) had serious surgery
( ) gone out in public in your pyjamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been arrested
(x) had alcohol
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
( ) kicked a guy where it hurts
(x) been in love
( ) been to a casino
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) saw a therapist/counsellor
( ) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
( ) bitten someone
(x) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) crashed into a friend's car
(x) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been fired
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush
( ) celebrated mardi
( ) been to Europe
( ) Been to Africa
( ) Driven interstate
(x) Been Skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the Internet
( ) been to a motor cross show
( ) lost a child
(x) had a crush on someone you shouldn't
( ) own an iPod
(x) own a mp3-player
(x) kissed a boy

January 18

Rules for cinemas and cineplexes in Kelantan

KOTA BARU: Cinemas and cineplexes can operate in Kelantan if the audience gender segregation rule is observed. 

State Local Government Committee chairman Takiyuddin Hassan said there has never been a ban on such outlets. 

“It’s just that there were no takers,” he said yesterday in response to Mentri Besar Datuk Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat’s statement that licences would be given for cinemas or cineplexes if they adhere to guidelines. 

On snooker and billiard parlours, he said these outlets should be able to start in March. 

Operators must comply with 15 conditions set by the state government, among them: no gambling; men and women cannot play at the same table; business hours from 10am to 11pm; patrons aged 17 and below can only play till 6pm; single females can only play till 9pm; and the outlets must be brightly lit. 

As billiards will be defined as entertainment, licence applicants need to register with the Sports Commissioner and the National Snooker and Billiards Association. 

“In Islam, there are things haram due to other elements. Snooker is halal but becomes haram when there is gambling,” said Nik Aziz after the state executive council meeting. 

Snooker was banned in 1993 after PAS took over the Kelantan government following the 1990 general election.  


** okay, i'm not trying to discriminate or something, but really, how worse could this be? sometimes it's just fascinating how different people thinks, and for this, i think i can never understand what PAS is thinking...i just think that this is pure idiotic... and what is the main purpose and objective behind this law? dont tell me u're trying to lower the rate of rape cases... but by doing this... maybe u will be able to attract more western tourists cause they're very curious and interested in this kind of situation... and seriously i feel a tint of embarressment everytime i explain this to a foreigner as they stare at me in awe and disbelief..but then again, their reaction and expression amuses me ...**

January 17

japan~

Chinese memorial to 'the good Nazi' opens war wounds

By Peter Goff in Beijing
(Filed: 18/12/2005)

A plan by China to honour "the good Nazi", a German who helped to save hundreds of thousands of civilians from Japanese troops, has reopened a dispute with Tokyo over its lack of atonement for the Second World War.

The Chinese authorities are drawing up plans for a museum dedicated to the memory of John Rabe, who defied the "Rape of Nanking" - a six-week massacre during which an estimated 300,000 Chinese were slaughtered by Japanese soldiers.

Honouring Mr Rabe gives China the chance to draw international attention to Japan's wartime atrocities at a point when relations between the two Asian giants are fraught.

A card-carrying Nazi, Rabe was a China-based Siemens employee in 1937 when the Japanese stormed Nanking, or Nanjing as it is now known. His superiors ordered him to return home, but instead he sent his family back and established a "safety zone" in the city where he offered shelter to terrified Chinese. Using his Nazi credentials, he and a small group of other foreigners kept the Japanese at bay, at considerable risk to themselves, and saved an estimated 250,000 lives.

Rabe wrote a 1,200-page diary that documented the killings and rapes in the city, information that was later used as evidence of war crimes.

The Japanese soldiers "went about raping the women and girls and killing everything and everyone that offered any resistance, attempted to run away from them, or simply happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time," he wrote. "There were girls under the age of eight and women over the age of 70 who were raped and then, in the most brutal way possible, knocked down and beaten up. We found corpses of women on beer glasses and others who had been lanced by bamboo shoots."

Chinese historians estimate that 80,000 girls and women were raped at the time.

"One was powerless against these monsters who were armed to the teeth and who shot down anyone who tried to defend themselves," Rabe wrote. "They only had respect for us foreigners - but nearly every one of us was close to being killed dozens of times. We asked ourselves mutually, 'How much longer can we maintain this bluff?' "

Beijing believes that Japan has never properly atoned for its
atrocities. Chinese anger is further fuelled by repeated visits by
the Japanese prime minister, Junichiro Koizumi, to the Yasukuni shrine, which honours Japan's war dead including some "Class A" war criminals held responsible for the massacre in Nanjing.

Last week, China's premier, Wen Jiabao, cancelled a summit with Mr Koizumi because "Japan won't own up correctly to its history". The shrine visits "seriously hurt the feelings of the Chinese people", he said.

When the pair did finally meet at a signing ceremony of a regional meeting on Wednesday, Mr Wen snubbed the Japanese leader by ignoring his request to borrow his pen.

Several awkward seconds elapsed in front of television cameras before the request was loudly repeated and the Chinese premier pasted on a smile and handed over the implement.

There were mass protests in March outside the Japanese embassy and consulates in China after Japan published a history textbook that glossed over the wartime atrocities. Tensions between the neighbours are exacerbated by other thorny issues, including a territorial dispute over resource-rich islands in the East China Sea and Japan's desire to become a permanent member of the United Nations Security Council. China also fears what it sees as a growing nationalistic militarism in Japan.

"Part of the reason to honour John Rabe now is a response to Japan's bad attitude," Jiang Liangqin, a historian at Nanjing University, said. "For example, they honour the war criminals and have never properly said sorry. Some Japanese even deny the massacre took place. We know that Japanese often look down on Chinese and don't believe what we say. Well here is a European who told exactly what happened. We want to bring the world's attention to that."

While the killings were going on, Rabe wrote to Hitler several times begging him to intervene but never got a response. He said later that being based in China meant he was unaware of his leader's heinous plans in Europe.

After the massacre Rabe lectured in wartime Germany about what he had seen and submitted footage of the atrocities to Hitler, but the Fuhrer did not want to hear about Japan's actions. Rabe was detained by the Gestapo for a short period, denounced by the Nazis and barred from giving lectures.

In post-war Germany he was again denounced - this time be being a Nazi Party member - and was arrested first by the Russian and then by the British, but was ultimately exonerated following an investigation. He and his family lived in abject poverty, surviving on occasional care packages posted to him by the grateful people of Nanjing. He died of a stroke in 1950 at the age of 68.

"The people of China will never forget the good German John Rabe, and the other foreigners who helped him," said Ma Guoliang, an 89-year-old woman whose parents were killed by the Japanese. "He saved so many people and yet at any time he could easily have been killed himself. He could have left, but he stayed with us. We called him the living Buddha of Nanking."

** japan... the conflict which lives in most of us(msian and chinese) these days...we grew to love them, their songs, their trends, their drama, their technologies... yet, we cant really forget what they did to our ancestors, how much pain they had brought last time... still, japanese fashion rocks~ as zoo kong said.. he dont wanna know japanese.. cause he is afraid that he will like them.. cause he wants to hate them... haha..but some jap are cute though..**
January 10

new undang?

Do take note, esp. this coming CNY festive season. "They" are extra hard working.
   
Happy Careful Driving!
   
   
Traffic Summon Charges in  Malaysia

Price quoted below are nett without further discount, bargaining are subject to price increase without further  notice.

Speeding: Exceeding 1 - 20km/h = $130 + 4 demerit  points.
Exceeding 21 - 30km/h = $150 + 6 demerit points.
Exceeding  31 - 40km/h = $180 + 8 demerit points.
Exceeding 41 - 50km/h = $200 +  12 demerit points + Court.
Exceeding 51 - 60km/h = $200 + 18 demerit  points + Court.
Exceeding 61km/h = $200 + 24 demerit points +  Court.

If you want to be a hero and fight the court case  yourself, and you lose, you pay the court charges yourself, which  will add up to your fine. I guess the court charges is at least $200  and above.

Careless driving = $150 + 6 demerit  Points.
Inconsiderate Driving = $170 + 9 Demerit Points +  Court.
Dangerous Driving = $200 + 24 Demerit Points +! Court +  Vehicle Compounded.
Illegal Racing = $200 + Vehicle Confiscate +  Court.
Fail to put Seat Belt = $120 + 3 demerit points.
Crossing  Double White lines = $130 + 4 points.
Phone and Drive = $200 + 12  demerit point + Phone Confiscate.

Do not hold your handphone in your hand when you drive even with loud speaker or ear piece.

Drink Driving (first offence.) = Up to $5000 Fine and, or  Jail Term + Licence Susp ended + Court.
2nd time offence = Jail  term + Fine + Court.

Making an illegal U Turn when there's no U  Turn sign = $70.

Fail to Signal when changing lanes = $70.

Driving at night without headlights or taillights switch on  after 7pm = $30.

No Number Plate =  $70.

Obstructed Number Plate = $70.

Obscured Number Plate  = $70.

Number Plate Of Unapproved Type = $70.

Demerit  Point system:

Let's say you have 0 point on 1st January 2005, and you committed the offence of Failing to Put on Seat Belt.
So now, you will have 3 demerit points and this will last for 1 Year.

If during this 1 year you have no demerit points offence at all, your 3 demerit points will be gone on 1/1/2006.

But, if during this one  year, From 1/1/2005-  1/1/2006, you commited another offence with demerit points, your very first offence will be extended for another year until 1/1/2007.
December 05

life's a struggle

我睁开双眼踏入这个世界
妈妈给我生命现在让我自生自灭
这让我恐惧在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具
回想过去难道生命就是这样延续?
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
就像整个社会被人心笼罩着它也是黑的
我背着宿命的十字架
也渴望power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
佛家说烦恼即是菩提我暂且不提
我倒是希望能够回到母体
老妈对不起我时常把你气得跺脚
你说你后悔当初没有把我堕掉
每当我放学回家放下那沉重的背包
家里空无一人只残留着你香水的味道
那时我知道你那天晚上又要加班
我打开冰箱拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐
老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家
我从睡梦中醒来只听到你们在吵架
我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试
老师他不喜欢我我也不喜欢老师
我讨厌穿制服我讨厌学校的制度
我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸讨厌被束缚
that's true
很多人不屑我的态度他们说我太cool
警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕
i don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己随便人家如何想我还是我
爱钱的女人只给凯子摸
不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多
金钱力量虽大却生不带来死不带走
紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手?

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸
当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省
铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象
刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象
仅有一寸短的铅笔写的是监狱风云
日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景
自由在他们眼里才是憧憬
放一把自制武器在枕头旁以防随时有人偷袭
有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情
有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集
有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息
有些人精神失常因为受不了打击
三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去
出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期
这也好一生中第一次感觉到幸福
但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚
我不知道接下来还有什么会发生
翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人
还记得某年无意间发现的照片
上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面
这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象
我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡
我抵抗胸口存在着不安及惶恐
我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

不论我走到天南不论我走到地北
不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪
it's kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money
外表好像要帮你却只是想帮他自己
笑容可掬的脸后面谁知道是个狼心狗肺
连朋友都能背叛因为只有名利合他口味
她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧
搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵
你可曾困惑在你身旁谁是敌是友
对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友
你可曾经历当你最需要帮助的时候
平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪
亲爱的神伟大的神
你可以怪我想法太过无知但我只是人
我不信人因为人也不信我
不要问我为什么我最多只能告诉你这就是我
生命像海浪一样有时高有时低
你是否告诉自己坚强渡过各种时期
我从命运的天台放眼却看不到星空
漆黑的天空压在头顶使我不得轻松
在我心中找不到一个安静的角落
我不能再沈睡下去良心彷佛在笑我
它在说:有几天几夜老妈曾经为你以泪洗面
老爸他只顾己见希望之火只见熄灭
我接起电话是老爸憔悴的声音
虽没见面却不难想像他当时的神情
刚听完他最近失业的消息
脑海里马上浮现祖母的话警告我一定要争气
我已经放弃所有哭的理由
因为我早就习惯冷漠活在无情的现实里头
人生要如何起头?改变要如何起手?
当活在泥沼中要如何才能金盆洗手?

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

uh...life's a struggle
yeah...life's a struggle

did u feel,man?...
 
 
 
 
December 01

another problem cannot be resolved

November 30, 2005

Another problem Malaysia cannot solve
M.G.G.Pillai

THE MINISTER OF HOME Affairs, Dato' Seri Azmi Khalid, will not go to
China tomorrow as planned. China has told him to sort out the mess in his
department in two weeks and come afterwards. The government was caught
flatfooted when the MMS video-clip of a naked Chinese woman doing the
ear squat was published. The police predictably have gone after the person
who took the video-clip. The newspapers are full of articles which suggest
that the police did the right thing.

But the problem of police brutality is not new. The Tenaganita chief,
Irene Fernandez, has in her files Indians, Bangladeshis, Nepalis and others
who have been brutalised by the police. The DAP MP, Ms Teresa Kok, has been
investigated for having the video-clip. The police wanted to find out
how she came to it. The police is not interested whether the video-clip is
true until the prime minister, Dato' Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, instructed
them to find out the truth of the video-clip. It has become important
because fewer Chinese tourists affect Malaysia's bottom line. Genting Highlands
casino lost millions of ringgit as a result of Chinese tourist high
rollers staying away for two days early this year. Chinese tourists would not
come to Malaysia all of a sudden. There has been two-thirds less tourists
for the first nine months this year compared to the last.

But the Malaysian government is not serious in resolving the issue. Not
yet. There is yet a statement to say it is. It is bothered that it has been
caught out. The former deputy prime, Dato' Seri Anwar Ibrahim, was
beaten to a pulp - by the Inspector-General of Police, no less - but the police
denied it until a commission of inquiry brought out the truth. If a man so
high could be brutalised by the police, and no one knew about it until
public pressure brought the truth, then what about the many cases involving
Malaysians, and those without clout. Police brutality is common
throughout the world. Malaysia is no exception. Movies from India, regularly shown
on Astro and the cinemas, regularly show police brutality and the police
in India does not say it is wrongly characterised. The California
policeman involved in the assault of Rodney King did not admit until public
pressure forced them to. Police brutality in the Middle East is so common that
even the United States sends its prisoners for 'softening up'. What is the
difference between a woman in Abu Ghraib prison telling Iraqis to strip
and perform sexual acts on each other and the naked woman doing ear squats
in Petaling Jaya headquarters?

The government and the police have repeated the mantra that they are
not involved, but behave differently so that the public, and the world, is
convinced that the naked woman doing the ear squat is part of police
brutality. The police aim is to remove any sense of dignity of the
person they have power over. One man said they did that to him while he was
detained under the Internal Security Act. A policeman used to piss on
the food that was brought to him, so that he went hungry. Another was
periodically served food that he could not eat. A third was beaten
after he had eaten. Another was not given a mat to sleep and had to sleep on the
cement floor with four air conditioners on full blast, and mosquitoes
galore. I had sent a book by a Guardian Reporter who had been detained
by the police, and wrote about it, to a party leader who had been arrested
because he was standing in the way of the Barisan chief forming a
government. He would not write about his experiences because it would
show that he had been forced to strip his dignity. He did not want that. So
he kept quiet.

That is how many people arrested by the police want to leave their stay
in the police cell behind them. They want to get on with their lives. The
deputy minister for internal security, Dato' Noh Omar, is dismissive of
people coming out with their experiences in police custody five years
ago. But he is wrong. A Reformasi woman detained by the police was asked to
strip and do ear squats five years ago. The trauma of getting one's dignity
stripped can take years to overcome. She has come public now. But what
about the Chinese tourists, now back in China, telling their experiences now,
and which newspapers in China are printing. They should have made their
statements before they left? But they have. They have persuaded others
not to come to Malaysia. That it has taken the proportion it has suggests
that many Chinese tourists have been badly treated over the years, if not by
immigration then by the police. It is a problem that would not go away.
And the government and the police make sure it does not. Going about as if
they do not care is not how to resolve the problem.

The newspapers, all owned by National Front members, has become party
newspapers. How they cover the Pengkalan Pasir by-election shows it.
Dato' Seri Anwar was listened to rapturously by a crowd of 10,000. But there
is hardly any report of that in the mainstream media. It is the internet
that carries such news. It is the internet that splashed the story of the
nude China woman. The print media did not report it until their reporters
could get someone in authority who could rebut it.

But that is what party organs do. That is what the mainstream
newspapers do. This present crisis will not go away, not so long as the Chinese
tourists do not return. But Malaysia should worry about this. There is no rapport
between Thai Prime Minister and his Malaysian counterpart, because each
took positions on the Thai Muslims and made statements each wished each had
not. So, a modus vivendi was reached by getting Tun Mahathir Mohamed, the
former prime minister, to meet Mr Thakson Shinawatra. Today, there is calm in
the Thai South, but that to do with a Thai editor locking horns with him.
But both Malaysia and Thailand are afraid that the Thai Muslims in the
south would want independent of either. But Malaysia is used to this: it lost
the other oil producing Malay state, Brunei, from joining Malaysia by its
own mistakes.

Pak Lah should have discussed the issue with the Chinese prime
minister, Mr Hu Jintao, when they met at the APEC summit in Busan. He cannot say he
was not informed. He is the Interior Security Minister as well as Finance
Minister. The staff in those ministries should have informed him. It is
no use demanding that the problem be resolved. It cannot be resolved. For
long, Malaysia has regarded foreign Caucasian tourists as special and those
from Asia and African as beneath contempt. So far, the other countries would
not take action for extenuating circumstances: their citizens can go to
hell but they must maintain their good relations with Malaysia.

But China had taken a policy decision last year not to send its
tourists to Malaysia, taken after many Chinese tourists had complained of their
treatment in Malaysia. Malaysia now knows why, but it is not resolving
the problem. It is still interested in finding out who took the MMS
video-clip than if it was true. Reversing that will not necessarily solve the
problem, as the government knows. But Dato' Seri Azmi Khalid can only go to
China after the present problem is solved!